Re-adjusting

Since much of what i plan to focus on in 2008 has to do with
REduce,REuse,REcycle,
I'm beginning the blog this way, too.
Let me just say right up front that I am
beyond exhausted.
PeeWee is stable and happy,
but only because I am hand feeding him a
mixture of baby food and distilled water
three times a day and carrying him around a LOT.
The vet school called to say that all of the tests came back
NEGATIVE and they want to start another round of invasive,
expensive, risky tests to look for *something else*.
I have put that on hold. He is stable and happy, snoring in my lap
as I type.
Daughter is loving her new found independence,
because I am paying all of her bills
until she graduates
and driving her around a LOT.
Yesterday we carried a dozen boxes (mostly BOOKS of course)
from her apartment to the Mommymobile and then again
from the parking lot to the dorm room in the unseasonably warm
(seventyfive degrees in january!) windy weather we are enjoying.
The *invisible support* I give her now as she is
launching her adult life is the greatest investment
I can ever make in anything,
and I am glad to do it.
Do I see the pattern here?
Of course I do.
Many very well meaning people have advised me
to take care of myself and I often advise others
to put on their own oxygen mask before assisting others
with same....
but at the very core of my nature is the *CARING
for others* trait that defines me.
I'm going to get more JOY out of this long awaited college
graduation because we have all worked so hard for it to happen.
She has defied all of the odds about what she would *never be able
to accomplish* because we just kept pushing against the edges
of the envelope.
That's HARD work, pushing the rock uphill all the time,
but we are almost to the top and I for one am looking forward
to the VIEW from up there.
Her future, stretched out before her.
As will mine be, as I take off the Mommy hat
and decide what path to follow next.
I've been knitting miles and miles and MILES of garter stitch,
thinking of all the possibilities.
Soon I will have the joy of wrapping myself
in all of that garter stitch and knowing
that all of the EFFORT was worth it.
Onward!