lifelong knitter

Teddy Bears

This is my new Teddy Bear cut. The groomer charges MORE to leave my hair longer and more fluffy, which Mommy thinks is Very Silly, but I'm not old enough to do the Math yet, so I just like playing with all of the other doggies at the Salon. My stylist says I play very well with others, but she needs to learn to cut my hair while she is holding me and feeding me treats...that standing still on the table is Not My Thing.

Last night my Mommy went to that Knitting nite she likes so much and came home talking about teaching a class on how to knit a pumpkin. Can this be right? Do you think she can knit vegetables and fruit and flowers and stuff? Why would you knit vegetables and then stuff them and put them in the washing machine? Is that how you make Soup? I hope so. I like vegetable soup.

Oh, and I thought you'd all be very pleased to know that I learned a wonderful new trick. I can now jump up on all the furniture. I can't jump DOWN of course, so I have to whine pitifully to get Mommy to come and help me. Isn't that just GREAT? I'm getting SO grown up.

The Answer is YES

I am freaking out about this. Not in the *oh my god how will daughter get to work and who will pick up sonny boy's meds and take him to the therapist and....* way I did the first time, but on a deeper , more fundamental level, what if I have exhausted my capacity to SEE? There is a tiny little nightmarish voice that creeps in at three in the morning and says *what if your mother was RIGHT about reading in bad light past your bedtime under the covers with a flashlight? hunh?* That voice SCARES me.
Grammar Avengers, I beg for mercy. Special circumstances sometimes REQUIRE run on sentences. Temporary insanity,Prayer for Judgement, requested.
My usual MO is to say, oh I'll be alright, what can I do for YOU....and brush off the doubt and run it through the garbage disposal....but I'm starting to think about this next chapter in my life Very Seriously and it is fairly imperative to have visual acuity when and if I begin the 18 month process of Application to Law School. Lord knows, there will be READING during those next three years, and forever after as a Practice. Hello? That's part of the Appeal (sorry) of Due Process.
I have said it before. I am primarily a visual creature. So many of the most important lessons in my life have been about Not Taking Things for Granted. This appears to be The Biggest.
So, as is my usual way, I am going to break the Big Picture down into small doable tasks. I will continue to post every day. Posts will likely be shorter, and more introspective than usual.
I will be Knitting. I can't Not Knit.

More Character building....

I have been having wicked headaches and blurry vision for a couple of weeks. I attributed this to all of the stress and paperwork associated with the College bird launch, and dutifully promised to *take care of it* when I got back. I went to my adorable eye doctor yesterday and happily described the miracle of the.....what? No, actually, when I cover my right eye with that thing I can't see the eye chart...at...all, even with my glasses on. Oh, that WOULD explain it, yes.
I am scheduled to see the brilliant surgeon again in three weeks.
The back of my left eye is again being squeezed by a ptyerigium.
Yes, I did indeed hear the post op description of the 50% chance of recurrence. I just never considered the fact that he was talking about me....so soon.
Although I am somewhat devastated that I have to go through this AGAIN, I feel incredibly blessed in many ways. I have a surgeon that I trust, at a major Medical center which accepts my Health Insurance.
I am in very good health otherwise, a good candidate for surgery. The Napping meds are a Good Thing.
I do not believe in coincidence. The metaphors are not lost on me, and so I know that Now is the Time to make some major changes in my life, if I want to see my way clear.
I am primarily a visual creature, so if I want to read, write, paint, draw, knit....all the things that make me who I am, something has got to give.
Stay tuned, as Danger Girl and her trusty guide dog Sandy boodle move to a new Network.