Sometimes you don't.
Before I left on this grand adventure, I had this "feeling". A vaguely disturbing, insistent feeling that I had to see my Mother before, well, before I might not have another chance. I tried not to articulate what I was really *knowing*. I spoke to my Mom last night and told her we'd be coming to see her Saturday morning. "Are you going to stay for awhile?" she asked, rather shakily..."Well, yeah, Mom, as long as you need. What's happening?" Before she said a word I KNEW. When she started the conversation with "Well, dear I didn't want to BOTHER you but...." the hair on the back of my neck stood up. The biopsy results will be back Monday. I'll be there to go with her to whatever appointments she has to discuss the options. sigh. This is a recurrence of a particularly insidious form of skin cancer. For the original diagnosis and surgery, etc, et all, I was three thousand miles away and had to get most of my information second or third hand. I wasn't so worried then. I knew it was going to be alright and that she was in really good hands. THis time I need to be there. To advocate, to support, to counsel.So, if you see me at Stitches on Friday and I look like a donut (chocolate filled and glazed over) give me a hug. I need all the Healing Power I can muster for this one.
Light your mama candles....Danger Girl is in the house!
The Mama candles are lit, my dear.I can't make it to Stitches, but here's a hug (((good vibes)))
Posted by: Sonja | February 18, 2004 at 01:12 PM
Greta your mama is in my thoughts. About 10 years ago my mom had a reoccurrence of breast cancer. She is a remarkably strong woman. Your mom sounds remarkably strong too. Hang in there.
Posted by: Kathleen | February 18, 2004 at 03:14 PM
Oh oh oh. Putting her at the top of my list. I was just having bitersweet mama thoughts myself, reading M-DKnitting . . . I'm so glad you're out there, much as we miss you~
Posted by: Maggi | February 18, 2004 at 04:13 PM
aw, I'm so sorry. (wave, wave, wave) those were the dpns wishing her health and contentment.
Posted by: marta | February 18, 2004 at 06:27 PM
Oh, honey honey honey. I'm sooooo sorry. Why didn't you tell me? Not a cell phone conversation, I suppose..... You know my thoughts and love are with you. I'll see you Friday where you'll be squoooozed to within an inch of your life. Time for more Mama-prayer stitches to be made....
Posted by: Rachael | February 18, 2004 at 07:16 PM
My thoughts are with you and your mother, Greta. I'm so glad you'll be with her in person. Take care.
Posted by: alison | February 18, 2004 at 10:47 PM
So sorry Greta. What timing. It's great that you will be with your mother.
Posted by: Melissa | February 19, 2004 at 06:22 AM
Oh, Greta. You and your mother are in my thoughts. I'm glad you're with her, and I'm glad that you're in a place with lots of people who love and support you.
Posted by: Em | February 19, 2004 at 08:42 AM
I'll knit and pray and think healing thoughts for her. I'd mail you a casserole, if I could.
Posted by: Gina | February 19, 2004 at 09:23 AM
Sending thoughts and prayers to you and your Mama. Had a candle lit for you this morning.
Wish I could be at Stitches to give you a good squeeze.
Hang in there!
Posted by: Christy | February 19, 2004 at 09:39 AM
Sending good thoughts your way, Greta. Such a sad and frightening time for you both. Candles have been lit and prayers continue.
Posted by: Larry | February 19, 2004 at 10:02 AM
My prayers are with you and your mom. God Bless.
Posted by: Sheryl | February 19, 2004 at 11:48 AM
Unleash the awesome powers of Danger Girl. Much love & healing thoughts are southbound...
Posted by: Ann | February 19, 2004 at 11:53 AM
My thoughts and prayers are certainly with you and your family...And I am so glad that you can be together right now! Take care...
Posted by: Mandy | February 19, 2004 at 12:38 PM
Sending warm thoughts and hugs. Perhaps we'll be able to meet up at Stitches also? I'll have my mom with me! :)
Posted by: Sharlene | February 19, 2004 at 12:59 PM
Of course you know I'll be praying. I really am glad that you are there with her. What an opportunity to love and share and talk and love and hold hands and remember and love .... well you know....
Posted by: lillium | February 19, 2004 at 02:34 PM
Candles are lit, needles are crossed and hugs coming your way from Indiana. I'm so sorry, dear. Prayers for you and Mama. Take care.
Posted by: Megan | February 19, 2004 at 02:36 PM