You kow the part, where Alice is asked to Explain Herself...and she replies that she can't explain, because she is NOT herself, at least not that she can remember....
Well, yes, that would be ME, at least I think it would be me, if I only knew which door to choose...hmmmmm, now let me see...
The good news (and if you know me by now, you know that there is ALWAYS the Good News *hee*) is that the Universe, in all of it's infinite wisdom, has chosen to allow me the opportnity to revisit 40 years of unfinished business. Once in a lifetime opportunity, this is, indeed. I have the ery real sense that until or unless I chose rightly this time I'll keep walking down the same side street and never make it into town.
To be even more vaguely metaphoric, this is a labyrinth (I've done years of study about labyrinths..walking them, and painting them, and writing about them..so Lord knows, I should be prepared for this, but STILL....) the likes of which I have never seen before.
The point of this journey of course is to ask a question, hold it in my heart, and simply walk in...alone. Meeting myself in the center, I fnd the answer I seek. The task at hand is to carry that answer out into the world and LIVE it, as fuly as is humanly possible.
If you are asking yourself at this point *GAD, could she be anymore obtuse?* Well yes, frankly, I can be. I know it is anoying, but I just can't be any other way. I just gotta be me...
OH, and in knitting news...there's been LOTS of it. Miles and miles of therapuetic prayer filled KNITTING.....cuz you know of course, that if you get lost in a labyrinth you have to unravel it all and follow our thread back to the beginning again.....
What was the question? OH YEAH...I can't explain myself you see, because I don't know myself or who I thought I was....can I get back to you on this one?
KNIT on, peeps! Through it all, KNIT on....
It's good to see your words here, however vague and obtuse. Knit on, and love from the Northlands.
Posted by: Ann | February 28, 2004 at 01:18 PM
Obtuse is the word I've been looking for is it :0) Seems outstandingly clear to me which probably says as much about me as you ha-ha. Keep walking forward Greta that way you'll get to the beginning that's waiting for you not waving at your back :0) That golden cord you have tied to your heart is link not life belt, the mapping will be all yours and of course the labyrinth being a place of transformation can transform not only its self but a self too. Take care, lattern is still lit here each day and there's still plenty of golden cord linking hearts to light as far as I can tell but only you will really know. First its the knowing then the daring as I am reminded each morning when I sit at my desk and read the note I have pinned on the wall "Dare you have the courage to be who you really are?" Each moment is a discovery and a life lived; may the moments be gentle and the living grand as life itself and the knowing, ah the knowing - be it held secure by a golden thread that links heart to heart and has the strength of light that surrounds supports and surprises you. Much love.
Posted by: Daisy-Winifred | February 28, 2004 at 03:13 PM
Best of luck doing what you have to do and going where you have to go.
Posted by: claudia | February 29, 2004 at 08:13 AM